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| Yesung (Kim Jong-Woon) |
Esta es la primera vez que publico algún escrito, me encanta pensar que es una carta que será recibida con un amor muy grande. Espero, además poder con ello seguir escribiendo, de esto y otros temas.
PD: I thank the person to whom the attached photo corresponds.
Agradezco a la persona a quién corresponda la foto adjunta.
Mary ~
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From: Marybeth
For: Yesung (Kim Jong-Woon)
How to
start a letter that is good enough to show everything I feel and think?
It's weird
to start with a question, don't you think? I think it's my way of being
original, probably someone in your thousands and millions of letters also
started in the same way, but I can only look like them in the love we have for
you and the immense desire to support you as anyway. I can't assume that I love
you more than any of them because I'm only sure of the infinite love I've for
you, I can only be sure of how much I want to support you with what I can. How
much I like to hear your voice, I like your smile more than anything and that
your happiness is the most important thing I can have.
I am a
normal girl, with a normal life, studious and with big dreams; it is the most I
will say of me at this time. First of all I want to thank you, you will think
that I should not, you will think that it is you who should thank their fans
for always stay , but no, let me tell you that you must simply accept the
thanks to you because your songs, your way of being, between many other things
have changed the lives of many people; for example to me, you have touched
something in my soul that is no longer the same, I recognize that at the
beginning, like most of the others, it was difficult for me to identify who was
who, but you took my eyes to yours and I learned to recognize you (I felt that
click that Mavis and Jonathan felt in Hotel Transylvania, I printed on you like
Jacob in Renesmee in Breaking Dawn, I noticed your absence like Ron when
Hermione was not, and so I could continue), little by little I discovered a
little more about you and I arrived unknowingly to hear you sing one, just when
I listened to each word without understanding it but still with feeling, with
so much love, with so much passion, enough to make me shed tears, I could not
tell you if of emotion or pain (for the song, if I remember correctly I was
Here I am), or both, I just wanted to hear your voice again and again, in that
instant I discovered that I would follow you and support you in everything, I
would be faithful to you even if the time passed, I would be ELF for you and
because of you.
Second, I
want to congratulate you for being the excellent person you are, for being
original, for that unique sense of humor, for that smile that makes us fall in
love, for loving your family more than anything, for your effort, for getting
your goals without surrendering, for your strength, for your desire to continue
being better and better fighting every day to achieve conquer the hearts of
people, for wanting to change lives with that beautiful voice, for accompanying
us in sad moments and making us happy with happy songs, funny steps and
expressions funnies. Congratulations because you have done well.
Last and
third, but not least (as the saying goes), I want to tell you something very
true that will not change: "perfection doesn't exist" and that we
have clear, we never fight to be perfect, we fight for our dreams, for our
happiness, for our motivations, for what moves us in the world. I know that you
aren't perfect; I know that you have flaws and I know that these defects make
you the special person you are. In spite of this, I can love you without
problems, I accept them and I continue considering you the end of my red thread.
I do not know much about you, I only know what I know and although it is little
I will continue learning from you if you allow me, always showing you or being
friends.
I confess
to being angry with you many times, the most recent and the one I remember the
most is on your trip to London with your brother Jongjin, I got upset because I
know that you love your brother but, I felt that you were not giving him the
attention he deserved, seeing the videos where you wear headphones without
hearing anything around you made me think that you wanted to get away from the
world, that you would prefer to be alone, I tried to understand you, to
understand you, to think positive things but I couldn't understand it, they
scolded me for you, they gave many excuses for you but the end I continued with
that pain and that doubt that seizes the heart. You will ask yourself who
excused you and scolded me, is a simple answer: YOUR FANS, fans of Latin
America that love you with madness, your clouds/sunflowers that formed a group
just to love you, to support you, to accompany you in each step. Another of the
things that bother me is the diet, I know that your voice deserves all the care
and I understand that, but if your diet is for to lose weight, it's to kill you
... like many, I'm very worried about your health, I love the version yours
with a spectacular body, well cared for and healthy face; I hate the version,
of someone who dies of hunger for being thin when he does not need it, I mean,
you don't need to be in the bones, you don't need to compete with Hyuk to see
who the anchovy is or yes? I need you to enjoy eating that despite a busy day
you can eat something healthy that keeps you energized, cookies like food isn't
good, as a biologist, I know. Thank God you are very strong and you have not
fallen ill, imagine if you eat well, you will be steel hahaha. I just want you
to take care of yourself so that you last many many years, without pain and
with a lot of vitality, remember that your mother hurts like to any mother that
your child doesn't eat well, think of her when you stop eating and what she
would say, with it I just want you to think that you are worth a lot to many
people and I do not try to scold you, sorry if it sounds like this.
I started
this letter with an idea that I could not continue, my time isn’t as much as I
would like, I lost my ideas in the days that I didn't write. I owe you an
apology for that, for that reason and for not giving you the love you deserve
day to day, I could make an excuse the time difference between us because 12
hours are many, but I don't have excuses; I could dedicate a minute of my
things to write you a beautiful message, to say good morning and good night
like all, but among that sea of words that I see, I get lost and look for excuses
just to write something special, then delete it and just I stay silent I
contemplating the love that they have you, I repeat a thousand and one times
that you are of all and always will be, and I accept it. My messages, although
simple are the sign of the affection that you provoke in me, every you steal me
a like o word of love is because I really I want the world to know you and see
you with the eyes that I see you.
Here in my
country (Venezuela) it was fashionable a song called "fan enamorada" (a
fan in love) tells the story of a fan who writes letters to her favorite singer
anonymously and one of them falls in love with that fan, they sing several
important phrases for me that make me remember you a lot and identify me. One
of them is: "you are there, in the middle of the crowd, in the middle of
that sea faces that fall in love with me, there you are", I think you have
many admirers and among them are and will be all those faces that will fall in
love with you that, just like I, write to get your attention, hope being the
last thing that is lost. I say they will be because I have not been able to
attend any of their concerts and as I will have some that have not been able
either, I hope to go some day to see you in the front row either in an SS or a
tour and it's Y's (I would love it, I would enjoy it with sighs). Another
phrase is: "I already read your letter, and although I didn’t answer, it
stayed in my memory and I even gave it to music", I love thinking that you
read each of the letters and messages that come with that love that
characterizes you, that this, like other love letters, will keep them in your
memory and will inspire you as always to continue composing to delight us with
your sweet voice. And as chorus: "A fan in love, it's a tear kissing a
smile (maybe you understand, but just in case you do not, the fans cry of joy,
of euphoria, of pain, of many things and the tears come from so many feelings
and our greatest consolation is a photo of the person we admire, who usually
has a smile, we kiss the face of our unique and great love to feel loved); is
the one that fills your wall with photos of you (this is logical, we get up and
see the face, the body, the expressions of our idol, will make your day be make
you much happier, are the engine of our days. I confess not to have a room to
place my wall with photos of you, but soon I hope to have not a wall, but a
full room hahaha, besides that my cell phone and computers are full of you); is
the one that lives like you of poetry (you with your wonderful lyrics inspire,
there will be many that like me, seek to find history, give meaning to each
word, enjoy it and continue wanting more and more, will write and read verses
and will take them to your memory as a river that flows in a sea of ideas); a
fan in love is waiting for your attention and your peek (every time you give
smiles, expressions or gestures to a fan's camera you make her the most
immensely happy person in the world, I think you know that well, a fan will
want everything from you will lose control, will tremble to see you, will be
afraid to speak to you, but will always look for your eyes, your smile, with
that and only with that, will be a better person and will always follow you);
and she confesses his passion for you to the pillow (every night, our thoughts
go to you, you are the first thing we think in the morning and the last thing
in the night, we confess everything we feel to the last thing that accompanies
us in the day and it is our faithful companion pillow, that will not reveal our
secrets, that one that listens without complaining and dries our tears in
moments of rage and pain, to her our confessions and more, my pillow knows how
much I admire you, the adoration that I have and the immense love that I can
feel towards you); is the one who loves you even if you do not know anything
(that's the most beautiful thing, because you may ignore this letter, read it
or forget it, don't answer, not because you don't want to, but for the time, it
may be in your thoughts but you could forget my name, and the nicest thing
about it is that even knowing that, I will love you more than yesterday but no
more than tomorrow, because every day that I discover a little more of you, I
fall in love more, don't worry about me, my love will always follow you, if I
miss these words it will have been in vain, just take care to fall in love as
you have done so far, still smiling, singing, being you and taking care of
you). Almost at the end: "I know you send me letters, that's why, baby, I
need you", is like the msjs that we write every day in any SNS, I imagine
that if at some point these beautiful messages were missing you would be sad,
that's why each one spend some time even placing a simple heart, believe me I
realize my mistake, I will write a good day every day, a good night to make you
always happy, I hope you forgive me if I do it too late or too early but the
horary is complicated , I will do my best. As the last sentence: "If you
give me the heart, I give you my song", that I do in this letter I give
you my heart in exchange for many many songs with that incredible voice.
Something I
didn't mention among so many ideas that come to mind (I already told you, you
are my inspiration) is something more of me, I will simply say three things:
one, I am a happier person since you came to my life, I don't stop talk about
you and I have met incredible people thanks to the love we have
(clouds/sunflowers), we all support you, but I apologize but here among us (we
always look for your sexiest photos and many want to take you to bed, I include
myself because I'm a woman, you wake up passions, it's your fault for being so
handsome hahahaha); two, I love reading, I love books, the stories that tell
the impossible loves, the mysteries of life, the suspense of a murder, the fear
of a tale of terror, the rhyme of verses in each poetry, teleport you without
get out of a sofa, bed or even on the road. I also love movies and series,
since they are like books taken to reality and if they leave you beautiful
messages of life much better, I enjoy watching Disney or children's movies
(always I have considered myself a girl in that aspect and I do not care,
because I enjoy them every time I see them like the first time), among the
Disney movies that I love are: Mulan, because she's a girl who isn't afraid of
anything; Land of Bears, because the brotherhood is important, so we aren't of
the same blood is the support that we always have in spite of everything; and
Frozen, I think the latter for the songs, actually the songs of the three films
are excellent and more with Phil Collins singing in Land of Bears, fascinates
me "On the move I am", I'm sorry, I was thrilled I could continue
with thousands; three, I love music in every way, I love to dance, sing and,
for bad luck, I have not yet learned to play an instrument (I always loved the
piano, but they told me I could not because I had small hands) , but when I
read I saw that you played the piano (even if it's not true, don't tell me) I
think if you can, I can, I hope to learn a little bit of everything soon.
Something
aside, I always imagined when I would see you, being able to meet you at the
airport, I make the biggest poster in the world by you, I will buy have many
red roses with blue balloons for you, with a surprise inside the flowers. See
you in the first row, capture every moment and I finally I know you I will
deliver the greatest gift and small gifts to others so they don't get jealous,
I will invest everything in that unique moment, I hope that my greatest wish is
fulfilled, amen!
I see the
great and long prayers and I think I should stop, I hope you have enjoyed
reading, if you didn't get here I will understand, if you do it I didn't have
anything left to thank and apologize for taking part of your time, I know you
are very busy with work. I finish here although I would like to continue
writing and writing. I would love to know more about you, I would love, you to
be able to continue reading longer and more beautiful letters like these, I
would love for everything good to always be with you. Please, please, please,
take good care of yourself, eat well, exercise, try to sleep even if it is
little (I do not like that you look like a zombie) and always remember that you
will have a Cloud accompanying you day after day.
With love,
A friend, a
cloud, a fan in love.
Mary ~
PD: I
apologize for my writing in English, since I'm not very good, I hope you can
understand and enjoy it!
Song: “Fan enamorada” de Servando y Florentino Primera
